Shh

Shh! I hear it scuttling toward us, We should not breathe until it passes. Try not to move, nor twitch or fuss, For it shall be both our arses. It's stench so dense, A more vulgar, manure. Pass out from the horror? Just a whiff is torture, pure! It's heaving, snarling, Crawling, along the walls.... Continue Reading →

Proud

There are times I feel proud, Proud, of the words I put down. Forever longing for your approval, But you can't praise me out loud! Yet you parade other words, Impressed, with the other heards. Throwing their work in my face, Acting like it doesn't hurt! I perform my poetry, And you stare blankly, back... Continue Reading →

IVIG

Waiting, Anticipating, Shaking, Afraid! I don't want to do this infusion today! Horrified, Terrified, Really, Scared! I'm still in pain. But I was prepared! Unfair, Typical, Would you believe it?! I took all my medicine, but still feel like shit! Tired, Fatigued, Damn right exhausted! Feeling all sorts of, nauseated! Can't wait, Taxi! Take me... Continue Reading →

Really?

Are you the kind of person to soak up peoples energy? Other peoples problems don't matter? It's just me, me, me, me, me! Do you praise them when they do all they can for you? But once, they can not be there. So you flush them down the loo? Well, if any of the above... Continue Reading →

Diet and Exercise

Oh gosh I need some exercise, I need to lose this tum! It's not like i can just get up and go out for lovely a run. Walking has its difficulties, mere metres can I go? If I can not exercise, my weight will surely grow? I'll cut down on my calories, eat my fruit... Continue Reading →

Sunshine

Oh hi there motivation, yes kick me up the arse! I need to lose these feelings and I need to lose them fast! Good morning to the sunshine, I love your sparkly rays. I think I'll go outside, and enjoy your heat today. I hear you singing little birds, can I whistle to your song?... Continue Reading →

No Trust No Love

I'll never experience a real love. I'm just too broken and twisted. I had a chance or two before, but unfortunately I missed it! I killed all the potential loves, As I feel I am not worthy. These people could never fall in love with the likes of me! Those times a person reached out,... Continue Reading →

Dear Patient

Hey dear patient, can you be patient? Seriously, you'll just have to wait. Yes your results are disconcerting but we're pushing back the date. Oh, you've been deathly sick before, but then you're used to this? I mean you could be at the last stages, but what's a week to be missed? If you need... Continue Reading →

Wretched Rumours.

I'm so bloody angry. Why do you let me down? When you do this sort of shit it leaves me with a frown! You think it's ok to play to your own rules. You pissed a lot of people off, taking them for fools. You don't take responsibility for any wrong doing. Your childish antics... Continue Reading →

Do me wrong.

This is not my story, but it is for so many people! Sometimes one person in the relationship takes the other for granted. Men and women can be equally ghastly and this is why I have not put a gender to either party. If your partner starts to do things that are dangerous, GET OUT!!!... Continue Reading →

Run Away

Too much is happening, I want to run away. I really don't think there is any reason for me to stay? Death is around the corner, every place I look. Am I the Grimm Reaper? Seriously, I'm shook! I didn't think my thirties, would be my morbid years?! Sweat inducing calamities, and nightmarish fears. Maybe... Continue Reading →

Possessed

Tears streamed down her face as she was hit with the realization that no one could hear her. She felt like she was screaming out in pain, but instead the hurt just hid, burried deep inside. She tried to dig her way back out, clawing at anything she could. However the harder she looked, the... Continue Reading →

Stalker, creep.

"Excuse me, hi. How do you do? I'd like to say I'm attracted to you. Your inviting smile and sparkling eyes. May I take you for a drink, or maybe a bite?" "How polite you are, well yes you can! It's nice to be accosted by a gentleman. Someone grown up, not pushy or demanding.... Continue Reading →

Even my nightmares, really?

I'm trying to be on my own, but still you harras me. You haunt my nightmares, bother me in my sleep. You hunt me down, chase me down the road. Always in my ear. Please leave me alone! How have I become the only one you pile on the crazy? Have you not witnessed me,... Continue Reading →

I resign!

I was pushing through, but my oxygen depleted. I told you all before, I need isolation after meeting. But I let myself get bombarded, with everybody's woes. So much so, it's got me ripping at my hair and clothes. I need my cave now and I need to be left alone. I was taken for... Continue Reading →

I’m the real her!

This is a second part to the poem, 'The Other Me' I actually got inspiration for this one through music and when I perform it (to myself) I actually rap the words. Whilst I can see it works as a rap I can not! Any way I hope you guys enjoy it?! I'm raging inside... Continue Reading →

My walk through the forest.

Tiptoe, I creep through twig and twine, what was once green, now brown and ashey, grey. Through the enchanted forest, I follow the singing wind and natures sway. The leaves left after death, whirling in a brittle haze. The ashey bushes twist and wind into an impossible maze. Lost, I manoeuvre aimlessly, unaware of my... Continue Reading →

The BITCHES that stir the pot!

These sneaky, little bastards, editing my life. Making out like, I am completely paranoid! I know what you're doing. I've got my eye on you. I have caught you little gits, in every little thing you do. You say this and that has happened, and I know that it has not. You've changed your answers... Continue Reading →

The right to my name!

Hot, blisters in the pit of my stomach, hellfire engulfs my flesh. Deeper and deeper I descend into darkness. Chaos about to burst from my chest. Further and further I crash through the pit, smashing into obstacles along the way. Razor blade objects cut through my soul, ripping, slicing and chipping away. I can see... Continue Reading →

Monster in my mind

I don't know why this is happening? I don't want to die! But lately I've been contemplating, my own suicide. Got that tricky demon whispering, living in my mind. Make the world swallow me whole, I really want to hide! It tells me lots of lies, to make me think I'm bad. Makes me think... Continue Reading →

Fearful and manic!

I'm feeling super anxious today, I actually might throw up?! I don't want people to see me. I wanna hide. It's just too much! I don't want to be on show, if it isn't on my terms. My stomach and throat tightens, splits and over turns. The panic stiffens my body, my neck and jaw... Continue Reading →

When you try.

It's happened again, I tried to be normal. Every time I move, I nearly fall. My legs are stiff, my bones are broken, the pain in my body had risen and woken. Stuck in one place for hours and hours, unable to even get washed in the shower. The more I try the harder my... Continue Reading →

Thanks for the Invite

You look so well, how have you been? It's been a long time since you were seen. You seem, healthy and smily, really happy. Yes but deep down inside I feel really crappy. I can't tell you that coz it'll dampen the mood. So I just smile and nod, try not to be rude. I... Continue Reading →

She’s still in there!

The sun shines bright in her eyes today, and she puffs out a sigh of relief. She's so happy to be alive today, content, but with confusion and disbelief? A smile broadens on her face today as she thinks about all the things she's able to do. Tomorrow she'll be attending a wedding. She can... Continue Reading →

To the monster in my nightmares

Please stop tapping on the window, you can't come in. I'm trying to sleep and your interfering. I want to dream wonderful things, get away from reality. You're here every night, why are you stalking me? What are you doing here, what do you want? Shall I write 'STAY OUT' on the window in big... Continue Reading →

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