Dear Patient

Hey dear patient, can you be patient? Seriously, you'll just have to wait. Yes your results are disconcerting but we're pushing back the date. Oh, you've been deathly sick before, but then you're used to this? I mean you could be at the last stages, but what's a week to be missed? If you need... Continue Reading →

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My walk through the forest.

Tiptoe, I creep through twig and twine, what was once green, now brown and ashey, grey. Through the enchanted forest, I follow the singing wind and natures sway. The leaves left after death, whirling in a brittle haze. The ashey bushes twist and wind into an impossible maze. Lost, I manoeuvre aimlessly, unaware of my... Continue Reading →

The right to my name!

Hot, blisters in the pit of my stomach, hellfire engulfs my flesh. Deeper and deeper I descend into darkness. Chaos about to burst from my chest. Further and further I crash through the pit, smashing into obstacles along the way. Razor blade objects cut through my soul, ripping, slicing and chipping away. I can see... Continue Reading →

Monster in my mind

I don't know why this is happening? I don't want to die! But lately I've been contemplating, my own suicide. Got that tricky demon whispering, living in my mind. Make the world swallow me whole, I really want to hide! It tells me lots of lies, to make me think I'm bad. Makes me think... Continue Reading →

Under the Bed

I heard a scratching from under my bed. Too close for me, right by my head. The wind whistles and rattles the windows, in time with the noise down below. What do I do? Do I face it head on? Do I just close my eyes, hope nothing goes wrong? It's not a dream, I've... Continue Reading →

Note of appreciation.

Hey lovely person. Thank you for making me feel special. A person hasn't done this in such a long time. And I'm sorry if I seem a little offish since you were so sweet, but you see this is all foreign to me. I was under the impression that I was to look pretty but... Continue Reading →

Going outside with Anxiety.

It can be really difficult for some one who has anxiety to go outside. I can not venture out on a spontaneous one and don't really like letting people in my space spontaneously. So when some one like me gets let down especially a couple hours before we're supposed to meet. It's a massive set... Continue Reading →

BITCH!

I don't know if it's lack of motivation, sadness or both, but I haven't got the energy to people today. The thing is it's happening more and more, it's become completely normal, and I know that's not ok! However it's easy to collapse in this pit of despair, harder to claw your way back to... Continue Reading →

My bed, my only friend.

I gravitate towards my bed. I like to rest my weary head. Should I venture out instead? Nah, you know, I'd rather be dead. Socialize with other demons. None of them are really human. Stay inside and don't go near them. I'll just stay alone in here then. Why would I want any friends? Many... Continue Reading →

Mental Illness doesn’t mean crazy!

Oops. I think I scared you when I mentioned mental illness. Because to those that don't understand it, mental illness equals crazy. You think people like me have got a screw loose. The kinds of beasts that'll eat your babies. To you this imbalance in my mind automatically makes me dangerous. You act like if... Continue Reading →

1 Minute Musical

This is just me being random, but I thought it was kind of good? Very mini musical. Should I make a musical? NO BITCH YOU CAN'T SING. IT IS NOT GOOD!!!

Anxiety Elf.

Things were approaching normal again. The mainstream, just in sight. I even went on date yesterday and I had a lovely night. I went to bed all content, and wrapped up all in joy. Well, until my anxiety popped up, just to annoy! "For goodness sake anxiety, why can't you let me be?" "Well I... Continue Reading →

Pretty.

Oh my, I am overcome with ugliness today. Tears cascade down my cheeks longing for a change. Sickness bubbles in the pit of my gut. Burning my soul on the way up. Wallowing in self doubt and lotheable pity. Wishing once again that I could be pretty. Watching the beauties on show before me, looking... Continue Reading →

Back to School (Ch15)

This is a fictional story. Chapter 15 of 'Death of a Teddy' FINAL CHAPTER! For the first time in forever we all woke up feeling relief. Those two precious creatures, their faces happily riddled with disbelief. The smell of bacon wafting through the halls and climbing up the stairs, inviting us all to rush down... Continue Reading →

Kidnap (Ch13)

This is a fictional story. Chapter 13 of 'Death of a Teddy' Chloe's body was trembling in disbelief. "What are you doing mummy?" She cried out whilst squeezing me, then all these men came rushing in. One man grabbed Chloe and took her away and then she dropped me on the floor. "No please I... Continue Reading →

A very honest entry.

Do you ever have those conflicting feelings? For instance I hate the way I look right now because I'm fat and disgusting. However I have a massive urge to stuff my face with carbs and dairy, also sushi but I always crave sushi! I'm not actually stuffing my face but I am fantasizing about a... Continue Reading →

Posted for the world to see.

This is not a true event for me, but is for a lot of people and we need to stop the disgusting creeps spreading private media when it's not needed! Lives have been lost because of it. IT HAS TO STOP!!! I woke today the same as before and typically picked up my phone. Checking... Continue Reading →

Party (Ch12)

This is a fictional story. Chapter 12 of 'Death of a Teddy' It was the big night, and the flat was a buzz. I was excited. We would get them at last. I anxiously waited for Jack to arrive, whilst downstairs the party rocking into the night. 20's and 30's of people squeezed into a... Continue Reading →

Revenge

Nothing like a woman scorned!!! An all emcumbering sadness, searing through my chest. Nausea creeps into my gut, rendering me a mess. The emotion shoots right through me forceful and suddenly. Leaving me in full confusion, for seconds before I was happy? The sizzle begins to spread throughout my broken shell. Dragging me far and... Continue Reading →

Just Breathe

"Just breathe." The say. "You're getting better why are you crying?" "Well because every day my body does not function and I feel like I'm dying." "But why?" They say. "You had good news, you're getting fitter!" "Whist that might be true for my body my mind feels sicker." "We don't understand?" They say. "You... Continue Reading →

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