Joker Grin.

Just because you don't understand, doesn't mean its not happening. Just because your soul is free, doesn't mean demons aren't trapping me! Don't tell me to get over myself, you can't feel my anguish. You don't know how you would spiral if you felt like this?! Every day when I wake up, I follow through... Continue Reading →

Deathly Anxiety

Oh no I'm really dizzy. Come on woman, dont pass out! You've had a lovely evening, what the hells the matter now? Not sure if its anxiety, or if I will just collapse? Palpitations, quickening, I really can't relax. You're such a silly girl, all you have to do is breathe! These techniques aren't working,... Continue Reading →

One of Those Years

When I wake up, I'm instantly drowning. My face is immediately frowning. Surrounded by the darkest day, my heart is filled, full of grey. Pain races through my body, anxiety courses quickly inside me. Panic sets in, not yet out of bed. Everything jumbled inside of my head. Whispers of rumours, clutter my ears, reciting... Continue Reading →

Possessed

Tears streamed down her face as she was hit with the realization that no one could hear her. She felt like she was screaming out in pain, but instead the hurt just hid, burried deep inside. She tried to dig her way back out, clawing at anything she could. However the harder she looked, the... Continue Reading →

An Other Appointment. Scan 50.

Good morning patient, how you doing there? If you wait a moment, I'll wheel in your chair. Don't worry about the ruckus, by the pissed off able ones. I promise to get to you, as soon as they're done! Ok then patient, thank you for waiting. But why are you sitting there, sweating and shaking?... Continue Reading →

I resign!

I was pushing through, but my oxygen depleted. I told you all before, I need isolation after meeting. But I let myself get bombarded, with everybody's woes. So much so, it's got me ripping at my hair and clothes. I need my cave now and I need to be left alone. I was taken for... Continue Reading →

Monster in my mind

I don't know why this is happening? I don't want to die! But lately I've been contemplating, my own suicide. Got that tricky demon whispering, living in my mind. Make the world swallow me whole, I really want to hide! It tells me lots of lies, to make me think I'm bad. Makes me think... Continue Reading →

Fearful and manic!

I'm feeling super anxious today, I actually might throw up?! I don't want people to see me. I wanna hide. It's just too much! I don't want to be on show, if it isn't on my terms. My stomach and throat tightens, splits and over turns. The panic stiffens my body, my neck and jaw... Continue Reading →

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