Intuition

I don't believe in psychic,but I seem to always know!I hate my intuition,these feelings really blow!I suppose its like a pillow,my emotions don't need to show.But, my gut is shot with sickness,and I cry when I'm alone!The day started so cheery,been smiling all day long.I can't pin point when it happened,but I knew that I... Continue Reading →

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A Little

Recognising that it's ok to feel this way! And whilst you struggle from day to day, your life is worth living! So do something little to celebrate. Whether it be a stroll, a leap or a roll. Maybe listen to that music that moves your soul? Jump in the shower to wash that skin. Your... Continue Reading →

Shh

Shh! I hear it scuttling toward us, We should not breathe until it passes. Try not to move, nor twitch or fuss, For it shall be both our arses. It's stench so dense, A more vulgar, manure. Pass out from the horror? Just a whiff is torture, pure! It's heaving, snarling, Crawling, along the walls.... Continue Reading →

One of Those Years

When I wake up, I'm instantly drowning. My face is immediately frowning. Surrounded by the darkest day, my heart is filled, full of grey. Pain races through my body, anxiety courses quickly inside me. Panic sets in, not yet out of bed. Everything jumbled inside of my head. Whispers of rumours, clutter my ears, reciting... Continue Reading →

The lost

The trapped are calling me, screaming out my name. Hands over my ears, I try to hide from guilt and shame. They're trying to convince me that I am just the same. These problems self inflicted, only got myself to blame. I can feel their heartache, I can feel their pain. The blood of the... Continue Reading →

Fatphobic

The phrase 'Fatphobic' really grinds my gears. I mean I'm fat and I don't want to claim the phrase. Who the fuck has a phobia of fat people? Is it that you have a phobia that one day we'll get so hungry that we'll just start eating people? Are you scared that I'm going to... Continue Reading →

Do me wrong.

This is not my story, but it is for so many people! Sometimes one person in the relationship takes the other for granted. Men and women can be equally ghastly and this is why I have not put a gender to either party. If your partner starts to do things that are dangerous, GET OUT!!!... Continue Reading →

Possessed

Tears streamed down her face as she was hit with the realization that no one could hear her. She felt like she was screaming out in pain, but instead the hurt just hid, burried deep inside. She tried to dig her way back out, clawing at anything she could. However the harder she looked, the... Continue Reading →

I’m the real her!

This is a second part to the poem, 'The Other Me' I actually got inspiration for this one through music and when I perform it (to myself) I actually rap the words. Whilst I can see it works as a rap I can not! Any way I hope you guys enjoy it?! I'm raging inside... Continue Reading →

My walk through the forest.

Tiptoe, I creep through twig and twine, what was once green, now brown and ashey, grey. Through the enchanted forest, I follow the singing wind and natures sway. The leaves left after death, whirling in a brittle haze. The ashey bushes twist and wind into an impossible maze. Lost, I manoeuvre aimlessly, unaware of my... Continue Reading →

Monster in my mind

I don't know why this is happening? I don't want to die! But lately I've been contemplating, my own suicide. Got that tricky demon whispering, living in my mind. Make the world swallow me whole, I really want to hide! It tells me lots of lies, to make me think I'm bad. Makes me think... Continue Reading →

To the monster in my nightmares

Please stop tapping on the window, you can't come in. I'm trying to sleep and your interfering. I want to dream wonderful things, get away from reality. You're here every night, why are you stalking me? What are you doing here, what do you want? Shall I write 'STAY OUT' on the window in big... Continue Reading →

No Thanks

This isn't about anyone in particular, but a collective of passed lovers from when I was younger and dumber.

Under the Bed

I heard a scratching from under my bed. Too close for me, right by my head. The wind whistles and rattles the windows, in time with the noise down below. What do I do? Do I face it head on? Do I just close my eyes, hope nothing goes wrong? It's not a dream, I've... Continue Reading →

Singing Lady

Singing lady, perched by my window, every single night. Sounds so eerie at 2am, it does give me a fright. My blinds closed tight and I'm too scared to look outside. So I pull my covers over me and I try to hide. Louder, closer, she almost seems to be inside. Curiosity takes over as... Continue Reading →

Giving Up.

Waking up again this morning, nothing to do, no one to see. What's the point of getting up? I'm so fed up of being me. In pain, pissed off and oh so fatigued. Longing for some sort of release. Trapped inside this broken body. Pleading to finally be free. Crawling along, bearly lifting a finger,... Continue Reading →

Sickness through out my body and mind.

A satisfying sight, the recovery from a fight. The sun shines brightly and the world's a delight. At least I can breathe and the cancerous pollution no longer has me. Finally I feel the glory, finally I'm free, the path is clear for me to see. Well didnt that start off so sweet, the remmsion... Continue Reading →

BITCH!

I don't know if it's lack of motivation, sadness or both, but I haven't got the energy to people today. The thing is it's happening more and more, it's become completely normal, and I know that's not ok! However it's easy to collapse in this pit of despair, harder to claw your way back to... Continue Reading →

1st night!

It comes closer every night. I see a monstrous silhouette crawl down from the roof of the train. I'm at the front of the carriage and there are nine people behind me. That makes me number ten. I see it slyly, slither behind the passengers at the far back. Instantaneous heat fills the car. Sweat... Continue Reading →

21 again.

Oh, if I was 21 again, I would do things so differently. If I was 21 again, I would do life so much better! I would leave the heathen I lived with. Not let him hurt me ever! I was young, in love and not so very clever. I'd start doing the things I loved... Continue Reading →

My bed, my only friend.

I gravitate towards my bed. I like to rest my weary head. Should I venture out instead? Nah, you know, I'd rather be dead. Socialize with other demons. None of them are really human. Stay inside and don't go near them. I'll just stay alone in here then. Why would I want any friends? Many... Continue Reading →

Predator

"Come here young lady. Where are you off to?" "I'm just off to see my friends sir, what about you?" "I was just going for a stroll, do you need some company?" "No thank you, I'm nearly there sir. I don't need you to walk with me." "But you're alone on the street, I think... Continue Reading →

Randoms at the Door.

There we go again. Randoms at the door. It's happening so much again, it's hard to ignore. But if I react or answer it, I know things will get worse. Its like living in this flat of mine is just a massive curse. The people who have been here before, frequent when they're drunk. Only... Continue Reading →

Fair game

Has anything happened in your adult life, that made you instantly regress back to childhood? That frightened and unsure state of mind that eventually lead to you being misunderstood. Where people think you're the one overreacting, because they're too intoxicated. But hold on I'm the child here, why with these people are we affiliated? Why... Continue Reading →

Mental Illness doesn’t mean crazy!

Oops. I think I scared you when I mentioned mental illness. Because to those that don't understand it, mental illness equals crazy. You think people like me have got a screw loose. The kinds of beasts that'll eat your babies. To you this imbalance in my mind automatically makes me dangerous. You act like if... Continue Reading →

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