Panic Disorder

What was the trigger? Nothing really happened. Something inside is chocking me! I'm swollen, much bigger, my throat is tight. It's closing in, and I can't breathe! Sweating profusely, cascading droplets of fear. My mind is fractured, rapidly, racing! My chest pounding, ready to tear. My heart aggressively, pulpatating! My bodies is breaking, ready to... Continue Reading →

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A Little

Recognising that it's ok to feel this way! And whilst you struggle from day to day, your life is worth living! So do something little to celebrate. Whether it be a stroll, a leap or a roll. Maybe listen to that music that moves your soul? Jump in the shower to wash that skin. Your... Continue Reading →

Thunder Cloud

There's a thunder cloud hovering above me, positioned to strike, at any moment! It threatens to pierce electricity straight through me. It is a Fierce opponent! Slowly, I stroll through the Valley of the Unknown, and turn the corner of Riddled With Symptoms. The aches and pains jerk rapidly, dancing together, in disharmonic rhythm. Sickness... Continue Reading →

I Miss It!

I like eating, I can do that, I like drinking, I can still do that. Don't care much for sex, but yeah let's tick that one off too. But do you know what I can't do? Something I was really good at and I don't mean just throwing some shapes on the dance floor; I... Continue Reading →

Dear Patient

Hey dear patient, can you be patient? Seriously, you'll just have to wait. Yes your results are disconcerting but we're pushing back the date. Oh, you've been deathly sick before, but then you're used to this? I mean you could be at the last stages, but what's a week to be missed? If you need... Continue Reading →

Making it to 100!

Please don't come back. I don't want round three. You've shattered my bones, brought me to my knees. Infiltrated my entire being, tried to break me with your deadly, disease. I'm lost, I'm sore, I'm ultra fatigued, to do this again is more than just mean. Monstrous creation, hear my plea. Die down now and... Continue Reading →

An Other Appointment. Scan 50.

Good morning patient, how you doing there? If you wait a moment, I'll wheel in your chair. Don't worry about the ruckus, by the pissed off able ones. I promise to get to you, as soon as they're done! Ok then patient, thank you for waiting. But why are you sitting there, sweating and shaking?... Continue Reading →

I resign!

I was pushing through, but my oxygen depleted. I told you all before, I need isolation after meeting. But I let myself get bombarded, with everybody's woes. So much so, it's got me ripping at my hair and clothes. I need my cave now and I need to be left alone. I was taken for... Continue Reading →

When you try.

It's happened again, I tried to be normal. Every time I move, I nearly fall. My legs are stiff, my bones are broken, the pain in my body had risen and woken. Stuck in one place for hours and hours, unable to even get washed in the shower. The more I try the harder my... Continue Reading →

She’s still in there!

The sun shines bright in her eyes today, and she puffs out a sigh of relief. She's so happy to be alive today, content, but with confusion and disbelief? A smile broadens on her face today as she thinks about all the things she's able to do. Tomorrow she'll be attending a wedding. She can... Continue Reading →

Still Rough

The CVID has been in full swing the past few weeks. It only started with a sore throat, but by gosh I'm weak. It went on to flu and now an infection. My chest is collapsing, please give me some medicine. The next stage pneumonia, bronchitis, sepsis? This isn't fair, why should I except this?... Continue Reading →

Sickness through out my body and mind.

A satisfying sight, the recovery from a fight. The sun shines brightly and the world's a delight. At least I can breathe and the cancerous pollution no longer has me. Finally I feel the glory, finally I'm free, the path is clear for me to see. Well didnt that start off so sweet, the remmsion... Continue Reading →

CVID

I guess it wasn't supposed to be? No one understands CVID. I get sick a lot more than you. 10 times a year I'll catch the flu. Just a few months past pneumonia grabbed me. All because of CVID. Oh you ask what does it mean? Common Variable Immune Deficiency. It means I get sick... Continue Reading →

More medication

Have you ever had those years, where you just can't catch a break? Where you'll have a glimpse of life, then something grabs it for the take. My health is very selfish and wants me all alone. Lying, pathetic in my bed with my mobile phone. It's hungry for medication and injections galore. Doesn't really... Continue Reading →

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