Numb

You're so numb, even alcohol won't hit you? You've tried to be intoxicated, but you're simply immune? Trying to escape, you hope to soon. Your life has lost rhythm, your hearts out of tune! Done wishing for something, anything good! Multiple shadows, divert to the woods. The souls of the heathen, cloaked with hoods. Why... Continue Reading →

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Theres Nothing Wrong With You.

She's consulting me, telling me how I feel. "You're not as sick as you say you are, if its in your head it's not real!" "Although your stomachs in knots, and your doubled over in pain. I can't help you with any relief, like I said, it's your brain." "I need you realise, it's not... Continue Reading →

A Little

Recognising that it's ok to feel this way! And whilst you struggle from day to day, your life is worth living! So do something little to celebrate. Whether it be a stroll, a leap or a roll. Maybe listen to that music that moves your soul? Jump in the shower to wash that skin. Your... Continue Reading →

Wounded

POP! There it goes. You were content, from your head to your toes. Yet, somehow, and goodness knows? You're riddled with dread, shot with a blow! Your stomach is turning. The fear disconcerting! Feeling helpless, you're burning, and your heart is done yearning. Nothing and no one, means anything, and your done! Constant night time.... Continue Reading →

Kettle.

My blood feels hot! A kettle boiling, almost overflowing. I try not to let it spill. Mind is racing, forever pacing, and I just can't keep still. A multitude of emotions, amalgamate a potion, change the way I feel. Lost and broken, so many words unspoken, these feelings can't be real?

Melting into Nothing

My motivations lacking, Anxiety is stacking, Panic is attacking, Let me out this door! I feel like somethings stabbing, It's all very alarming, The collapse is starting, Pool of blood upon the floor! I begin convulsing, Nerves violently pulsing, I'm turning into nothing, My brain is oh so sore! Why are they just watching, Instead... Continue Reading →

Joker Grin.

Just because you don't understand, doesn't mean its not happening. Just because your soul is free, doesn't mean demons aren't trapping me! Don't tell me to get over myself, you can't feel my anguish. You don't know how you would spiral if you felt like this?! Every day when I wake up, I follow through... Continue Reading →

The lost

The trapped are calling me, screaming out my name. Hands over my ears, I try to hide from guilt and shame. They're trying to convince me that I am just the same. These problems self inflicted, only got myself to blame. I can feel their heartache, I can feel their pain. The blood of the... Continue Reading →

Possessed

Tears streamed down her face as she was hit with the realization that no one could hear her. She felt like she was screaming out in pain, but instead the hurt just hid, burried deep inside. She tried to dig her way back out, clawing at anything she could. However the harder she looked, the... Continue Reading →

I resign!

I was pushing through, but my oxygen depleted. I told you all before, I need isolation after meeting. But I let myself get bombarded, with everybody's woes. So much so, it's got me ripping at my hair and clothes. I need my cave now and I need to be left alone. I was taken for... Continue Reading →

Monster in my mind

I don't know why this is happening? I don't want to die! But lately I've been contemplating, my own suicide. Got that tricky demon whispering, living in my mind. Make the world swallow me whole, I really want to hide! It tells me lots of lies, to make me think I'm bad. Makes me think... Continue Reading →

Loser

I don't want to be alone forever, I really don't! But when I try, everything dictates that I'll be forever alone. For a couple of weeks my energy is up. I'm well and happy, I've got some luck. Then low and behold, in it comes creeping. Sickness and terror and that panicky feeling. So I... Continue Reading →

Giving Up.

Waking up again this morning, nothing to do, no one to see. What's the point of getting up? I'm so fed up of being me. In pain, pissed off and oh so fatigued. Longing for some sort of release. Trapped inside this broken body. Pleading to finally be free. Crawling along, bearly lifting a finger,... Continue Reading →

Sickness through out my body and mind.

A satisfying sight, the recovery from a fight. The sun shines brightly and the world's a delight. At least I can breathe and the cancerous pollution no longer has me. Finally I feel the glory, finally I'm free, the path is clear for me to see. Well didnt that start off so sweet, the remmsion... Continue Reading →

Going outside with Anxiety.

It can be really difficult for some one who has anxiety to go outside. I can not venture out on a spontaneous one and don't really like letting people in my space spontaneously. So when some one like me gets let down especially a couple hours before we're supposed to meet. It's a massive set... Continue Reading →

BITCH!

I don't know if it's lack of motivation, sadness or both, but I haven't got the energy to people today. The thing is it's happening more and more, it's become completely normal, and I know that's not ok! However it's easy to collapse in this pit of despair, harder to claw your way back to... Continue Reading →

Mental Illness doesn’t mean crazy!

Oops. I think I scared you when I mentioned mental illness. Because to those that don't understand it, mental illness equals crazy. You think people like me have got a screw loose. The kinds of beasts that'll eat your babies. To you this imbalance in my mind automatically makes me dangerous. You act like if... Continue Reading →

Wash away the sadness

I'm so terribly sad, so much so my stomach hurts. The pain rises up and burst out! I'm broken and nothing works. A shell lost amongst the fishes, in the deep blue sea. They swim and frolic happily beside me. I'm unnoticeable, a small gem at the bottom of the ocean. The waves wash me... Continue Reading →

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