Going outside with Anxiety.

It can be really difficult for some one who has anxiety to go outside. I can not venture out on a spontaneous one and don't really like letting people in my space spontaneously. So when some one like me gets let down especially a couple hours before we're supposed to meet. It's a massive set... Continue Reading →

BITCH!

I don't know if it's lack of motivation, sadness or both, but I haven't got the energy to people today. The thing is it's happening more and more, it's become completely normal, and I know that's not ok! However it's easy to collapse in this pit of despair, harder to claw your way back to... Continue Reading →

1st night!

It comes closer every night. I see a monstrous silhouette crawl down from the roof of the train. I'm at the front of the carriage and there are nine people behind me. That makes me number ten. I see it slyly, slither behind the passengers at the far back. Instantaneous heat fills the car. Sweat... Continue Reading →

Silver lining.

I didn't sleep well last night, which resulted in quite a long snooze this afternoon. I had a horrendous dream, and no I'm not going to go on about on here but I have fantastic ideas for the book I'm writing. What does upset me though is the interpretations I get from my dreams. I... Continue Reading →

21 again.

Oh, if I was 21 again, I would do things so differently. If I was 21 again, I would do life so much better! I would leave the heathen I lived with. Not let him hurt me ever! I was young, in love and not so very clever. I'd start doing the things I loved... Continue Reading →

Happy for Once.

He made my anxiety completely disappear. Just by holding me close and talking nonsense all night. Snuggled up, his arms a blanket, wrapped round my body. He reassured me with kisses on my face, and I feel light. Our fingers intertwined as we lay on the bed. Just words and kisses. We do that normal... Continue Reading →

Date Night

Erratic, pounding, bursting from my chest. How can one evening make you such a mess? Throat feels swollen, it's kind of closing up. It's date number 2, I can'tbelieve my luck? Yes its good nerves, but still it makes me sick and my stomach is tied up in knots. I feel like I'm floating, but... Continue Reading →

My bed, my only friend.

I gravitate towards my bed. I like to rest my weary head. Should I venture out instead? Nah, you know, I'd rather be dead. Socialize with other demons. None of them are really human. Stay inside and don't go near them. I'll just stay alone in here then. Why would I want any friends? Many... Continue Reading →

Predator

"Come here young lady. Where are you off to?" "I'm just off to see my friends sir, what about you?" "I was just going for a stroll, do you need some company?" "No thank you, I'm nearly there sir. I don't need you to walk with me." "But you're alone on the street, I think... Continue Reading →

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