Fresh Baked Lies

I have a plan, I need a mask. I need to put on a presentable facade! So I can film, and make a kill! So the consumers will give me money at their will! I need their love, but in disguise. Give me more money and I'll always love you guys! Make more content, dispite... Continue Reading →

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Anxiety is a Vampire

Anxiety hits you whilst you're sleeping, you wake up thinking you're having a heart attack! Move yourself, get to the toilet, distract the crushing pain in your back! You feel like your throat is blocked up with gas, and you can't relax? Your chest is heavy and you're so clammy, skin dripping like melting wax.... Continue Reading →

We are Creatives!

I refuse to be broken anymore!I have a plan to change my life around!I can make it as a creative.I won't let you push me underground!I know not everyone will love our work.I know not everyone will care.But, I know we're too good to give it up!So let's support eachother and share, share, share!I love... Continue Reading →

You Awake Too?

How many of us are kept up at night by the the nightmares of the past? It's 4am and I've not been drinking, but I'm burning up real fast! The voices woke me up, screaming in my head. There is a sweat induced figure of a woman, where I lay in bed. Now I can't... Continue Reading →

Cash Money

I'm skint, I'm poor, I'm brasic! Would robbing a bank be too drastic? Some cash would be fantastic! She falls to the floor. Dramatic! I need to do something! Literally, anything! But I can't afford a thing. For my supper, I shall sing! Who wants to take me out. Next time will be my shout!... Continue Reading →

FOOD ADDICTION!!!

I want fried chicken and macaroni cheese! I'll get mad if its healthy, take away the salad, please! Did someone say takeaway, lets get a chinese! I can't stop eating, I got a disease! I'm sad, so some give me some food. I'm happy, so feed me to celebrate my mood. I have no will... Continue Reading →

One Minute to the Next

I'm craving human inimacy. Don't Fucking touch me bro! Why doesn't anyone like me? Erm, what you looking at though? I need to eat more healthily! Dinner is fried food with cheese. Be serious, why are you so silly? Could you lighten the mood, please? I need a right ol knees up! Go away, I... Continue Reading →

You’re No Monster.

Tap, tap, tap, on the window. I wish you would go away!At bloody 3 am, it's really early and super late!I see your silhouette, project upon my moon lit wall.A sinister figure. Seemingly, over 10ft tall.I try to stay fixed like furniture, a cobbled stone like statue.Medusa clapped her eyes on me, but that makes me... Continue Reading →

FUCK IT!

I'm nervous,I'm nauseous.It's chaos,I'm cautious!Don't trust it,don't want it.Don't stay here,run from it!Smack,there you have it,Stuck,inside this shit!I'm losing,forever.A fix,will be never.I'll spiral,I'll sink.I'll gorge,on the drink.More I do,less I think.Nothingness,on the brink!Understanding,is futile!Want saving,denile!Just lose it,you've lost it.Can't grab it,never had it!

Oi, I’m on Fire!

Its heating up in here, someone turn the dile down! Its so hot my skin is crying, pouring sweat upon my brow! My insides are flaming, I swear I could breathe fire. A dragon in heat and temperament, all this is rather dire! A sheet of burning flames dance upon my skin. My mind is... Continue Reading →

I’m a silly girl

I know you don't think I'm smart enough. You forget the experience I've had to endure. I ask you for support and I keep quiet when I get nothing.I let you run out of the proverbial door! What if I was hoping to start a whole new life, let writing be my vocation? I'd get... Continue Reading →

Queen of Crappy

I've got no motivation, my body's kinda numb. The only sorta of emotion is, I'm feeling pretty glum! I know what will work, but I'm scared to do it! Every time i do, for days I feel like shit! But, its so boring, I've not been outside for a week. Do I go and buy... Continue Reading →

Gluttony and Dark Poetry

I have started asking fellow friends for illustrations and characters for my blog/short stories/poetry. This beautiful rose illustration is by one of my favourites, Thank you my lovely xxx I'm regressing, I can feel it, I've not stepped outside all week. Everything feels so difficult, I can't even brush my teeth! The only thing comforting,... Continue Reading →

NO to the PHONE!

I can not pick up right now, my tensions are running high. By all means send a text and I'll get back to you, alright? How many of you fuckers call my arse just to be sly? Knowing my pathetic self will hear it ring, and maybe cry?  Who of you think you're slick, playing with my emotions? Having to... Continue Reading →

Inside Out.

Why do I disassociate myself from sexual intimacy? Why when I have intercourse, do I need a drink in me? Where are the desires that I'm supposed to feel? Why does nothing sensual, ever feel real? What's wrong lady, you think maybe its the chemo? Could also be the menopause, it can cause this you... Continue Reading →

1000 likes

Thank you guys, I woke up to this, this morning. I appreciate you all so much. Thank you for the support and thank you for reading and making me feel worth a damn! These poems and short stories are for you all, you're not alone, we suffer but we help eachother build a ladder! 'Simon... Continue Reading →

Misdirection

MISDIRECTION Back into my bedroom, its for my own protection,slightly more imprisoned, I'm losing my connection.Hide all of the mirrors, say "NO" to my reflection,there's too much damage done, I seep like an infection.The ooze begins to puss, a volcano like eruption,only me, not us, can endure this corruption.Comatose, a dream like state, enter an inception,I thought that I could... Continue Reading →

Spread Them Like Roses

SPREAD THEM LIKE ROSESThe red, velvet petals sprinkled upon the bed.The gentle flicker of candle light, whispered with the wind.The plan had been set in place, andthe excitement plastered on his face with a widespread grin.They lay upon the silken sheets,when blood began to pour.For he was not there to see his love,this woman was... Continue Reading →

Judgy McScrewface

I don't need your judgement. I loathe myself enough! Those snarky little digs. Focus on yourself my love. No body is perfect, we all have a voice in our head. Some voices so critical, we could use a friend instead. So keep your screwface to yourself, your unwise words aren't wanted. Keep your nose out... Continue Reading →

Hate Thyself

I need to punish myself, hurt myself, cut myself off! Poison is unpredictable, and my soul is lost! My nerves so bad I'm shaking, my head heavy as lead. My spirit constantly breaking, my body cold and dead! I hate myself profusely, I really make me sick. Maybe we should lock me up, poke me... Continue Reading →

Sobering Up!

I hate myself, I'm sobering up. The poison hurts, I give a fuck. I need to cry, I need a hug. Stash that shit, under a rug. Got the shakes, the jitter bug. No life here, just grief, no love! Why do i do this? I feel so rough! This is shit, I'm such a... Continue Reading →

Drowning

Alcohol wearing off, sadness setting in. My heart sinks to the depths of hell, the demons start to sing. I fight a losing battle, I bearly live to breathe. My monsters taken over, drown in anxiety!

Worry Head

It really is a struggle, just to get out of bed.I really try not be, but I'm a worry head.Everything is broken, nothing seems to fit.Please, could I just have a little happiness?I don't mean to feel so sad. I want to be like you.But all the normal somethings are really hard to do.Please don't... Continue Reading →

Anxiety Rainbow

Multicolored sponges attack me in my sleep. Seeping into me, frustration seems to creep. Burnt oranges and fiery reds splattered on a canvas. Too familiar a feeling, provoking the madness. I spiral closer into the murky depths, soiled browns and ashen grey take hold of my breath. I struggle with my mind, a battle to... Continue Reading →

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